1. Please be patient. It has been so long since we have lived life, that we aren’t sure how to without fear. We’re scared that we mess things up. We’re scared we will do or say something and you will decide to leave. We have forgotten how to live without fear.
2. We will apologize for absolutely everything. Even if it isn’t our fault and we had no control over the situation. We will apologize for apologizing. Just bare with us.
3. We are guarded. It’s a difficult thing to wrap our minds around someone caring for us or even loving us when the last person who said they did had a funny way of showing it.
4. We do not think you are our ex. So please do not think that. We are scared. We are healing. We do not want to be hurt like that again. But we know you are you. We just have been programmed that people are cruel. It will take us some time but we will trust again.
5. We are scared to death to make you mad. Even if you have never raised your voice or been mad with us about anything. We are waiting on it to happen. We might not say what is on our mind or do things that we really want to do because we do not want to make waves. We try to be peace keepers.
6. We always expect the worst. You might go to put your arm around us and we flinch. You might try to have a conversation with us and we break down and cry. Please be patient. We really are trying.
7. We don’t hold our breath. We might hope for things to be good but we aren’t surprised if they turn bad. Promises really mean nothing anymore because we have heard them all before.
8. We want to let you in. More than anything we want to feel safe. We want to feel loved. We want to be cared for and desired. Give us time. It’s a battle everyday.
9. We want to be optimistic. We want to fall in love. We want to believe there is such things as happiness and love. We want to make you happy and be with you. We just need you to show us that you want the same things and they can be real.
10. It will get better. Everyday you chisel a little more off the wall. Everyday we let you a little more in. Everyday we care deeper for you even if we have problems showing it. Please be patient. I promise in the end it will all be worth it.
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